We are heading out to a baby shower for our youngest niece. Thinking about it makes me wonder about our other nieces and nephews. The family is spread far and wide, yet even those who live close we seldom see.
I miss the old days when Mom was alive and there were many family gatherings. It bothers me that there are great niece's and nephews I really don't know. This isn't how I hoped it would be.
I married into a family that was large and loud (except Beloved whose not so loud). Impromptu dinners were the norm. Holiday's always turned into over-nighters with cards and lots of laughter.
But those days are gone.
I know I'm the brunt of a lot of family jokes and I've always been okay with that. I really don't give a rip what anyone thinks. Yet, as I prepare for the long drive out to my in laws home, I can't help but think of all these babies that I hardly know and of the ones I no longer see.
It's kinda sad. It really is.
I'll be glad to reconnect with my sis-law. She's my polar opposite but we've been a part of this family for too many years not to get along. I only wish my other sis-law would be there today, too. The three of us have a pretty good ol' time.
So, I'm off. Cute little present for the new baby in hand. Maybe, just maybe, we could have a day like it use to be in times past. Maybe.