Monday, March 17, 2008

A Stronger Woman

I was...harsh with someone I love yesterday. I took a stand I've taken before, one that I don't necessarily regret taking. I do regret hurting her.

It's not the first time that I've smacked this individual with my "judgmental, opinionated, bitchy” thoughts on life, love and the pursuit of all that. This family is riddled with snickers, snorts, and otherwise unpleasant conversations pointed in my general direction.

So, why do I do it? Why do I care how she lives or loves? She isn’t my daughter, my sister, my mother. And, frankly, she doesn’t want to hear it anyway.

It’s because I love her. She told me once that I would mother the world, if I was given the opportunity. She’s right. But that doesn’t give me the right to hurt someone’s feelings.

Then last night I heard this song and it made me think of her. It helped me to realize that the reason I took the stand I took was because I want her to be A Stronger Woman .

So forgive me for being a bossy, pushy, see things my way, kinda girl...Cause you know I love you like one o' me own (don't you just feel sorry for C and J??)


Stronger Woman by Jewel

I guess you could say I'm one of those girls
That's always been with one of those guys
You know the type
Like right now, he sleeps while I write
But it's better than crying
I'm worn out from trying
From loving a man who always makes it clear
I'm not welcome here
Just till he's horny and hungry
or needs something cleaned
And you know what I mean

But not tonight
'Cause come the morning light, oh
I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
The stronger woman in me

I'm going to be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
Won't lose myself again, never, no,
'Cause there's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman in me

Light bulbs buzz,
I get up
And head to my drawer
I wish there was more
I could say
Another fairytale fades to gray
I've lived on hope
Just like a child
Walking that mile
Faking that smile
All the while
Wishing my heart had wings

Well tonight, I'm going to be
The kind of woman I'd want my daughter to be, oh

I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
There's a stronger woman in me
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
I won't lose myself again, never, no
'Cause there's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman

This is me, packing up my bags
And this is me, headed for the door
And this is me, the best you ever had
I'm going to love myself
More than anyone else
Believe in me even if someone cannot see
There's a stronger woman in me
I'm going to be my own best friend
Stay with me till the end
Won't lose myself again, never, no
'Cause there's a stronger woman
A stronger woman
There's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman in me,
Yeah...

Countdown: 15 days

6 comments:

ExpatKat said...

You've got a great heart Mrs. Annie.

amyanne said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog and for your kind words!

We are both Pacific NWesters...nice to meet you!

Oh, and would you be interested in reviewing books on your blog?

Send me an email if you are.

Amy
amyalathrop@gmail.com

Family Adventure said...

Sounds to me like you did it for all the right reasons.

Hugs - Heidi

Patti said...

everyone could use another mother...

Roxie said...

Every so often, some people, including me, needs a "smack" to wake them up. If you didn't care, you wouldn't have spoken up. If the person knows you well, she'll figure that out eventually.

My Ice Cream Diary said...

I'd like to give that loving smack to several people that I love. Sadly they see it as interfering and not as love and concern. *sigh*