I really don't know who to talk to about this. I have no friends (that I can think of) who have dealt with this issue. If there is anyone out there in cyberspace who can share some thoughts with me, I am open to listening.
KK doesn't believe in God.
It's not that we didn't know this. It's just that instead of saying things she thinks we want to hear, she is snarky. She is disrespectful. She no longer denies what we have suspected all along.
Our option is to pray.
I am unsettled by her attitude.
And I don't know what is truth and what are lies.
Please don't misunderstand, in so many, many ways she is doing great. She's made a friend - and that's huge! Sometimes, she is sweet and thoughtful. There are times that she is such a joy.
But it's the anxious, snotty, lying moments that make me crazy.
She's so closed off. How do I help her?
A few days ago, after we had completed all of our adoption paperwork, she told Beloved that once the adoption is final...that we are stuck with her.
Which makes me think that what our therapist said in the beginning is true, "The first year will be hell...the second will be worse."
Pray for us. Pray for her. I know that this is God's plan for our family.
I just don't know if I'm strong enough to handle it all.
After re-reading the above post and some of the previous post, I have come to the conclusion that this blog has become bi-polar.
har har har